Jessica leaving Girls' Generation?!

It's safe to say I was shocked. Did anyone else see this coming?!
I have been doing research on this for the past few hours on the internet but everywhere says the same thing and it's really hard to get a clear picture of what is going on here.
Although from what I have read it seems as though SM Entertainment is just crumbling with so many other bands losing members and all these other 'scandals'. I am not really a huge part of the KPop scene other than Girls' Generation so I didn't really know about all the other bands and issues until today.
From what I gather SM seemed to have dropped Jessica due to a conflict in interests? I mean their statement was hard to understand with the wording but basically Jessica had already expressed that she wanted to leave and that is why SM decided to separate her from Girls' Generation yet they would still manage her. Just separately.

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On the other hand Jessica posted on her social media site weibo (which is like Twitter in Asia?) that she was dropped from GG for no reason and that it has always been her main priority. She was getting ready to go to the fan event in China as well...

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I mean it's kind of hard to tell who's telling the truth.
I am going to try and express my thoughts on the situation here as best as I can and try not to take sides however my biased is leaning towards Jessica's story...just because of all the things going on with SM right now and other evidence.
My first thoughts were that SM dropped Jessica for no reason because I didn't think she was actually doing anything wrong? A lot of the things I saw on Tumblr were about how everyone was sad and that they want SNSD to stay strong in this time. Which I do too.
I mean I think this all comes down to the fact that Jessica does want to pursue a career in fashion and SM didn't think that Jessica could do that and be in the band and so cut her off.
Which sounds horrible.
I just think this is really bad timing especially when the other members of Girls' Generation are currently in China for a fan event and Jessica is not. I think this is really bad for the girls because they are being made to do something without one of the band members, and I don't think it was their choice to since Jessica was apparently supposed to be there only to find out she'd been dropped.
Plus I really don't think this was Jessica's choice. Especially because she, along with the other members signed a contract with SM to stay in the band for three more years after their seven year contract with SM ended. So if she was going to leave SM to focus on her fashion career wouldn't she have done that and not signed the contract?
I have read people saying that SM was doing what they thought was best because Jessica wanted to start a fashion line, study abroad and be in the band and that she couldn't cope with all these things at once and because she didn't want to chose between them SM chose for her. Which does make sense but at the same time I don't know why that stopped her from being with the rest of the band for at least this one last fan event.
Like the SM statement said she'll be there for one more album right? So technically, until the album is released she is still part of the band? Unless I am reading it wrong.
Still I think it was awful for SM to send the rest of the girls to the fan event without Jessica. And what made things even more heartbreaking is that when they were performing they didn't sing Jessica's part. I mean I don't know if this was true for all songs but during their song "The Boys" they didn't sing her part and it was awful. Not just for the fans but for the girls as well I mean I feel like they felt really lost because they had no one to fill her spot.
I mean they could have just cancelled the event or something...I know that's a hassle but they should have cancelled or let Jessica go anyway. I mean why stop her from going?
The crazy thing is that Jessica isn't the only one of the girls who is doing other things besides singing. The other members of the band have been acting on TV shows, films and even in musicals. They have been doing other things outside of Girls' Generation and so I don't know why Jessica can't do these things either.
I also think that even if Jessica was going to leave and expressed her thoughts on leaving she wouldn't have done it this way. I feel like if everyone knew she was going to leave at some point and supported her there would have been a much bigger farewell than this. I don't know how they do it in Korea but in America/Europe if someone leaves a band the whole band are supportive and celebrate the time that person was in the band. So I feel like if Jessica had told them she was leaving that would be the response she would have gotten and not this.
So yeah. I think I have said everything. From photos I can tell the other girls are really upset. I mean they spent seven years together and now is the time to drop one of them like flies? That's cold. I mean yes, Jessica and SM may have had a conflict of interests but I doubt Jessica would have chosen to leave at this point in time. It just looks bad.
Will we ever know the truth? I have no idea.
I just am kind of shocked and upset about the whole thing because I don't think it should have happened this way regardless of who actually made the call of Jessica leaving.
In the end I wish all the girls the best, but at the same time I know it won't be the same without Jessica in the band. I mean these girls have been through so much together and for something like this to happen is really awful...
I have no idea what's to come but I'm interested to know.....
If you guys have any thoughts I'd be interested to know. :)

International Fangirl Day

Hey girl hey
Fangirl...
I believe I have been one since....I discovered High School Musical?
Yeah it was my favourite thing in Primary School. I got really into it and I just thought it was the best thing ever. Zac Efron was my first all time celebrity crush and well...still is one of my big crushes. I mean...have you SEEN him lately?
I think we all know what I am talking about.
But yeah...I thought since this is a blog about being a fangirl I would take the time to talk about some fandoms. I mean some I am more active in than others but I would still consider myself a part of them.
While I think I have left the High School Musical fandom it will always have a special place in my heart, I still know and listen to all the songs, I was a big Zanessa shipper back in the day...and yes, sometimes I wish I could break out into song in the middle of a corridor. And everyone join and everything but I can't.
My next big fandom was Twilight.
I mean okay I was definitely not one of the first to be in this fandom I mean I only got into the craze in 2009 - New Moon. Yeah. Basically Robert Pattinson threw me off of it a little. Not just him but the fact everyone was obsessing over him and I had no idea why - now I know why. Rob definitely grew on me as time went on...like when he got a hair cut haha but I love him now. Me and Rob - we are good. I think he's amazing and I love him as Edward and he's just...perfect.
So yeah Twilight was a big thing for me these past few years. I mean Twilight is what caused me to really get on the internet.. Like I was on it before Twilight but with it I joined Twitter, I found Tumblr...I really just got out there and away from Facebook.
I mean I think I've told this story a million times but because of Twilight and Glee, everyone kind of hated me on Facebook. I made so many Facebook statuses and looking back, some of them are very cringey. But I won't apologise for who I was like because I am who I am and if you don't like it...leave.
Right now I am pretty sure half of my Facebook friends have hidden me from their timelines...
Yet some people follow me on Twitter?
Like if you hate when I fangirl and tweet all the time then why do you still follow me? To talk about me obviously, or you're too lazy to unfollow but like...I definitely feel people probably talk about me. Which is fine because I probably talk about them to. I mean let's be real.
Anyway...
Another fandom that's big for me is Glee. People tend to have abandoned it over the years but I will always love Glee. I can't even tell you why I just love it. It always makes me happy. And yeah okay sometimes yes it can be kind of terrible but I stick with it because Glee is Glee.
Literally if you didn't like it after the first season well you won't ever like it I feel haha. I mean it is what it is. I think part of me is drawn to it because it had a High School Musical feel - which everyone told me when I first watched it. So I think that's a big thing that made me want to watch.
I think the one after that was Vampire Diaries. I was set against watching this...but then...I gave in.
Basically one summer my friend watched it non-stop and was obsessed and so I finally caved. I got into it halfway through its season 2. I love it, I mean it's really good and while I was unsure of having another vampire series in my life they are very different. I mean I love my Damon and I love my Stefan and I try to keep my love for them equal but I tend to like Stefan a little bit more. I feel like he needs it since everyone on my Twitter timeline has those Damon feels.
I always tend to want to go with the hipster vote. The unpopular one really haha. Because I like to be different but not in a stuck up attention seeking way.
The next one after that I think was Blood on the Dance Floor.
My friend showed me them as a joke but like...I'm obsessed. They're song "sexting" was catchy and soon I discovered they had a lot of inappropriately catchy songs. And while a lot of people hate them, due to rumours or their appearance or the music I like them.
Again with the unpopular opinion.
But I just think they are amazing, they are making it on their own with their own record label and they are pretty amazing and down to earth. Yes, they do look a little different but that's part of why I love them. Plus, Dahvie is so sweet and has tweeted me many times so I definitely feel special because of this haha.
Like I am always unsure of their music when it's first released but I do end up really loving it. I never really pictured it being my music taste but it is and I'm happy with it.
Soon after came Pretty Little Liars...
One summer I watched like five TV series... Desperate Housewives, Hell Cats (cancelled after one season), Privileged (cancelled after 2? seasons), The Big Bang Theory (up to season 5), How I Met Your Mother (up to season 9) and Pretty Little Liars. Like it was a lot of TV and no social interaction that I can recall hahaha.
But Pretty Little Liars was only on season 2? I think...It was a while back. But I was obsessed.
I mean it's definitely a show for me because it's teenage girl drama and as a teenage girl, I feel I can relate although at the same time not really because my friend never disappeared, I am not being stalked/tortured by some anonymous person and um... I have never shop lifted, had a drug problem, had an affair with a teacher or am a lesbian...but you know...it's a great show.
I definitely need to read the books but I am so into this show...it's amazing.
Soon after that came Gossip Girl. I know Gossip Girl is over but like...the Upper East Side guys...it's where it's at.
I feel it has a similar tone to Pretty Little Liars, an anonymous person spreading their secrets? Yeah similar theme although in this show Gossip Girl isn't trying to kill anyone. Haha. I really loved the series, I jumped ships so many times it was hard to keep up with who I was supporting but it was a really good/crazy ride for me and I love the show a lot. I still watch it because you can never get enough of the Upper East Side.
And then after that it was my latest one...Fifty Shades of Grey.
I'll let you in on a little secret...
I thought I might get hooked on this...
I mean I was set to read it for ages and then I FINALLY got around to it. I LOVE Twilight fanfiction, literally once I find a good Edward/Bella fanfiction, I am set. I mean every story I end up liking has a lot of lemons and I really can't help that part of me that likes reading it...
Anyway yes, so this just happened to be the most talked about Twilight fanfiction because it's an international best seller and is becoming a movie.
I had definitely heard about it as Master of the Universe. Hell I wanted to read MOTU way back when...but I turned it down when I went to the fanfiction and saw the tiny print and long, long paragraphs haha. I sent it to the back of my reading list and kind of forgot about it.
But no I am hooked. Like...I need a Christian Grey.
As with a few of my fandoms there has definitely been backlash. As if people really want to think about this relationship as anything but super abusive and not like a BDSM relationship at all and all this other stuff. But guys, it's fictional.
Literally at the end of the day I want a guy who is as sweet as Christian, he's caring, rich and just...amazing, plus Jamie Dornan is the cherry on top of this cake.
Similar to Rob I was unsure of how I felt about him but eventually I was like - hell yeah. Not to mention the fact he's a Northern Irish guy like...they don't just happen. Trust me, they don't...not good looking ones anyway haha.
He's super great and I just...I'm crazy about him now haha.
So yeah those are all my main fandoms - well the ones that are still relevant and a big part of my life.
The one that is sort of underlying and will always be there is Friends. I mean it is just the show you watch. While I have learnt it's not for everyone I feel it is definitely one for the ages. Like it's still relevant and I can quote it at random times and most people just look at me weirdly...but it's definitely timeless.
Another fandom like that is Mean Girls. Although I have to say I'm only there for the quotes. I don't follow the "rules" haha. I mean I hardly ever wear pink...and my hair is in a pony tail quite a lot...
Finally two fandoms I think will stay with me much longer than the rest are Sims and Animal Crossing.
Mainly because unlike TV shows they are never really fading. They are always coming out with new games and they are timeless and things you can always turn to. While yes, you can do the same with TV I feel it is not the same, because actors age, they come and go but a Sim/Animal Crossing town you created ten years ago could still be there and almost as if you never left it. I say almost because with Animal Crossing real time does pass haha.
So yes, this was just an appreciation post to all the fandoms. The ones I am in, the ones I might not be in but I definitely think they are great. I mean yeah sometimes they are overboard but so is every addiction. I mean a fandom is just an addiction it can be unhealthy if you let it. But honestly I think I've calmed over the years haha.
So here is to another long year of fangirling and many more years to come. x

Girls' Generation

The other day I was on YouTube looking for music to listen to while I did my maths revision. I decided to listen to some Girls' Generation. Only because I had recently watched this music video for Baby Metal...a Japanese metal girl group and it reminded me of how much I like KPop. I know Japanese and Korean are two totally different places and languages but whatever.
So I typed Girls' Generation into YouTube and I found a video of their second Japan concert and I decided to watch/listen to it.
The thing was two and a half hours long. I will post it below.

I didn't like watch it all in one go or anything I kind of stopped and kept coming back to it but I got through the entire thing.
I don't know what it is about it but it was actually kind of amazing.
Like okay I read comments and a lot of people were saying they lip sync and all this other stuff but honestly I didn't care. I mean not everyone can do a two and a half hour concert with about two minute breaks so they can change costume.
Not that I know...but I have never been to a concert before so I don't know.
Anyway...I have to say that I can't tell the difference between Japanese and Korean. Mostly because when they were talking and not singing they were talking in Japanese, didn't know that until someone commented below that they speak good Japanese haha.
Also they sang a couple of songs in Japanese and to me they sounded the same as the Korean. Apart from Run Devil Run. I knew the difference with that one because I really like Run Devil Run and own the Korean version so I knew the difference there.
But yes the whole thing was pretty amazing. Like the arena they preformed in was HUGE. I would not want to be sitting at the back for that concert. I know there were big screens but they didn't show a lot.
I liked how when they went to change their costumes they had little video things that were shown on the screens. While I thought they were a little strange and I didn't know the relevance at all I thought it was a nice distraction for them to change.
Another thing about the arena, I mean they had everything going, lights, water, confetti at some points. You just don't get that at concerts over here so I was impressed haha.
One thing I noticed is they do favourite about four girls over the rest to sing parts in the songs. Either that was the time I chose to look at the screen or what but I swear some of the girls definitely had more singing parts than others.
Which makes sense for a group so big but you know...even out the parts a little more.
So yeah, in conclusion I liked the concert, I would totally go to their concert if they had one here.
You do not need to speak the language to like the music. At least I don't think you do.
After I watched the concert I did download some more of their songs. I typically like the upbeat ones because they are the catchiest.
So yes, Girls' Generation.
I don't know what it is about them I like so much in particular I mean they were the first KPop group I liked after Psy...and I only like Psy for that one song - we all only liked Psy for that one song haha.
Anyway yeah...the only reason I would want to learn Korean or anything is probably just to know what the songs were saying. Plus if you learn the language you would probably be able to sing the songs better than just mumbling the Korean parts and belting the English part which I am sure we have all done at one point in our lives haha.
So in conclusion...I probably prefer music in other parts of the world to the music over here most of the time. I mean after the Selfie song made it big I think we all lost some hope in our music industry...